The Footprint

Two years ago we moved into a brand new build. The final walk through was a sprint to the finish line, where we had approximately 20 minutes to go through and note anything that didn’t look as expected, upon which we then drove to the lawyers office to sign on the dotted line. You’d think that would be a red flag moment. Truth be told, it wasn’t. The builder was building quality homes very slowly, and because this was in the initial throws of an unknown virus, we had to exercise extreme caution.

The move in was also fine tuned and fast. For the first time ever we hired a moving company, who arrived with two trucks, seven brawny young men, and the precision of a Swiss watch. Four hours later and the home was full and we could rest.

Within the first week, as I was coming down the stairs, and the sun was filtering angelically through our newly installed blinds, I saw a footprint on our steps. Well, not an entire foot, but rather half of a print, including the toes. It had been installed when the final layer of shellac was painted on the wood treads. No amount of coercion would release the imprint.

We alerted the builder, of course, and had to wait a good six months to have it fixed. Timing was poor, the builder was backlogged with other necessary minor fixes across a few build locations, and then there were protocols in place to slow the process even more. Six months I stared at that print.

My mind wandered as I envisioned exactly what was the cause of this error. It was a right foot. Does everyone lead with a right foot, or does dominance matter? I’m sure the thought of leaving a shoe print was the reason it was there; a sock would likely leave fuzzies. So, why the need to retrace or step just there?

When I was a child we had a daunting task. My dad, being the do-it-yourselfer-to-save-every-penny kind of guy, undertook to paint the exposed wood on our stairs. The stairs also had an iron banister. And……he paid two strong young men in our neighborhood to come over…I can’t believe they actually agreed….to hold said bannister while he painted, so that it could be bolted back down after. Even now I can’t believe we did this.

But because of this type of scenario, my brother and I learned how to navigate all sorts of painted surfaces. When he painted the walls, we would hold on to the bannister and tip toe up the stairs like ninjas. We actually played “ninja” throughout the house. We learned how firmly we could press a surface before a finger print appeared, to my dad’s chagrin. We were determined, and relentless, in ways to circumnavigate each vignette so that we could emerge unscathed, and undetected.

Did this painter understand how to navigate this very sticky situation? I’m not sure. Maybe it was one oversight-we’re allowed those on occasion. Perhaps we have some huge bombastic scenario that took place for which we are not privy. I’m not sure. I do have an intact imagination, though, so I took a stroll down a few potential pathways.

Still, once the builder came out to fix the one stair, it was apparent to us that the second team (second string, or back up option?) had zero idea how to match the first attempt, so that all the stairs looked the same, felt the same. So now we have 15 stairs with a ruddy texture so we don’t slip and fall, and one smooth and shiny stair. I’m not a teenager any longer. I take each step. No skips. I also no longer wear socks on the stairs so I avoid a potentially fatal outcome.

Now this entire situation did also give me time to reflect on how often we may attempt to tiptoe into a situation. We may reconsider and back out, or perhaps we are wanting to double check something, get a better view, retrieve one final thing….and every time we do that, we leave an imprint. It’s clear we were there. How often does the Lord come back in and smooth things over, and whether through an act of forgiveness, mercy, or grace, he covers our steps? What if he, too, leaves that portion of our story smooth, and shiny, and not exactly like the steps before or after?

We may think we are playing ninja and are undetected, but at least one person knows what we’ve done, and where we’ve been.

I kinda like knowing we have a master builder.

When I look back at all my foibles and failures, my eyes well up with tears. I know what I could have come to many, many times. Sure, I face consequences for my actions and those can sometimes be painful. Still, I’m so encouraged that I have carte blanche to receive forgiveness, and help, to smooth over the tip toe imprints I’ve left behind.

Holiday Tradition(s): Easter

Boy, I have really invested so much time into holiday celebrations. I can’t say that I’m upset by it. I can say it’s probably due to the fact that I have such fond memories from holiday get togethers across the span of my childhood. I don’t doubt that, in small measure, I have felt compelled to celebrate because I placed so much value on those times. Much of my childhood and even into my adulthood is characterized by the mundane in life. Anyone relate? In that measure, it’s a little easier to understand that, for me, holidays meant an alteration to the day-to-day, an abrupt change to what is expected, and the excitement of different activities and food.

Food, of course, is the foundation of most holiday get togethers. This may be a uniquely American thing, or maybe a uniquely Christian thing-either could be false-but I would like to say that as I’ve observed it, food is part of every culture :).

When a holiday approaches I begin with considering the menu. What will I put out? What will I make? I often have a standard of offerings for any holiday, and have worked at attempting to avoid cross pollinating. For example, I don’t want to serve the same meat each holiday. I used to do that. However, a Christmas ham and an Easter ham seemed boring and predictable. This last year, I changed to a roast beast for Christmas, as in Prime Rib, and even I was blown away. I did ask my husband to help me prepare it. I will admit: I got the recipe from a certain online person with a blog and cooking show. Does that matter, though? Anyone can ruin a recipe. We didn’t. It was delicious! So now I feel the freedom to have a ham for Easter. But then, I don’t want to have mashed potatoes. They come next with Thanksgiving, and again, the repetitive thing. Plus, I always found it strange that we would have a beef gravy over a pork meat. Is that just me? No? Well, I’m no purist and certainly no chef, but I had to change it up.

Most places I’ve lived does have moderate to H-O-T weather on Easter, depending on day. This year, Easter is later than usual. I don’t want too many hot dishes. Shoot, even the ham comes precooked-I’m guessing they don’t want to be responsible for thousands of people getting sick or worse for undercooking a ham. So, whether I heat it through and through, or simply warm it up, we won’t die. But also, it dawned on me that the sizes of some of these pigs must be enormous! Those hammocks. Lord….I can’t get away with too many cold things, either. For example, my kids don’t like salads of most sorts: potato, lettuce, jello…..so, those are out. Why, jello, though? The floating fruit is a scientific mystery and who doesn’t like Cool Whip?

I’ve decided to remain current and trendy and have a charcuterie board, plus deviled eggs. My crowd is still all about dips with veggies or chips. I’m skipping chips, but will include veggies and then…la piece de resistance…..deviled eggs. Am I right? The irony of deviling something on Christ’s resurrection is not lost on me. Plus, they are delicious.

Still going to have the ham-with a sugar, coke, Dr Pepper, or no, glaze. Hmmm…decisions. I will add two small sides and a bread of some sort. For dessert I will have out the chocolate candy tower-we traditionally order chocolates from one company-and I decided since I can’t find this fanciful recipe I used a few years ago, I will make a different cake I saw just this past week. It’s called an “icebox” cake, and it uses fresh fruit, is old school, and simple. I like pie, but most of my crowd is mixed about the culinary treasure, and they are getting sugary treats anyway…dessert is just a necessity for a three course montage.

One thing that I find so annoying is when the older kids ask, “Who is coming over?” Look, they huff when I do invite people, they are disappointed when it’s, “just us,” and frankly I can’t take the pressure of attempting to satisfy their need for a crowd on a holiday. It’s not my fault kids grow up and move far, far away. It’s also not my fault that adult children have other lives and may not want to come over. It’s not my fault that people we know from church or in the neighborhood have their own families and traditions and activities. Frankly, I had always dreamed of having a growing crowd, envisioning all these kids coming with their spouses and kids…..sigh….some day, hopefully. And perhaps this entire dream stems from how I felt growing up, with the large crowd, the busyness, the good eats….

The thing that was always missing from my memory was the work. Why? Well, I didn’t have to do any of it! First, I was a child. When I grew up, and had a baby, I had a baby, and was poo poo’d from attempting to try and help…tend to the baby, they’d say. When I moved away at an older age, and I suddenly became the oldest person, oh wow….it was then my job to manage all the work. I miss just attending and enjoying the event. And despite their double-mindedness about visitors and people, I know my kids will grow up with a memory of how I tried to make -all holiday gatherings- special, or at a least memorable, and hopefully in a good way. I know people who have memories of drunken fights, loud music, angry conversations……I didn’t want that for my kids. And, sadly, I had a bad outcome once. I guess we all get a mulligan. But never again. Promise.

I don’t mind the work, and in the past decade have really fine tuned the less is more focus, along with using techniques to help me feel like I can prepare and work WHILE participating in the day. The kids are almost out of the egg hunt age, so that will have to rest until children attend, if there are any, again. I’m not against having an older person’s hunt….lol….that honestly sounds like a hoot! And, because of the diversity of ages, we had instituted a new tradition for holidays of Nerf gun fights. We had to miss Christmas last year due to rain and mud, but unless it rains (please, Lord, hear our prayer), we will have the blessed Nerf war, to the delight of my youngest, now 8. It’s the glorious battle de jour. He can’t wait!